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[January 6th, 2010] |
I picked these up today and was wondering if anyone tried these?
I'm starting a two week veggie/fruit/water diet
with a few days of fasting in between.
Red pills, red bottle.
They say "Liquid-fast gelcaps * with hoodia"
Let me know ! Thanks :)
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[January 6th, 2010] |
How can anyone who wants to be "skinny" believe in what the rest of the world calls recovery?
Even if I "recover" from this state of mind, gain weight, become what they think of as normal..
Stop thinking this way, counting calories and staring at my body in the mirror, looking at thinspo videos on you tube?
I did actually gain some weight because I felt that my face looked sunken and wasted away. I still do not feel pretty.
I do not feel fat so much as depressed and "imperfect". My stomach is not flat enough and my thighs look gross. Oddly, I know even as I say this that other people would say I look good.
I know I am sick in the head, but I felt happier when I acted on these thoughts and deprived myself. Feeling in control felt so good.
I don't think I can maintain this "normalcy"...
Restricting made me feel like I was on my way to being "forever thin".
I know logically that perfection is a myth..
but that cannot keep me from going back to where I am comfortable and felt free and empty...
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| How was everyone else's day? I'd like to share mine.... |
[January 6th, 2010] |
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I met my friend in Denver for shopping and happy hour, and we went into this awesome little boutique where I tried on a very cute/sexy lingerie top. The saleswoman made a comment on how skinny i was and took the smaller size off of the mannequin for me which made me feel like a million bucks! And i will say, I was not totally displeased with my appearance, except for my tiny boobs that didn't fill the top out enough :( but it still felt good to be their little "model" and have them keep bringing me stuff to try on!
Then we went to a nice place for happy hour and my friend insisted that I split a plate of truffle fries with her (I would NEVER order that on my own, and this particular friend is on the heavier side....) So i ended up eating half of them and trying to PURGE as much as I could, but didn't feel like I got much up. So in the car on the way home, in rush hour and a snow storm, I was trying to make myself puke into a shopping bag. While driving. To me that seems pretty low, what do you all think? Is anyone else this fucking consumed with getting all food out of their body!? Argh I feel like I should be mad at myself for putting myself and other drivers in danger but I'm not, I feel like I ate those damn fries so I had to do what I had to do. I was going to puke in the parking garage by my car but thought I'd be more likely to get caught.
Also today I went to an initial consultation for a ED treatment program, that my current therapist referred me to because I've gotten quite a bit worse regardless of being in 'treatment' since April. My bf also told me about this place after I told him that i've fallen back into this. It's an intensive outpatient program and it costs $15,000. Thank god for insurance....but.....wtf am I really going to go through with it??? It was really a slap in the face today to see where I have gotten myself. Especially since I'm fitting comfortably into my size 4s ( I know I talk about them a lot but I'm sooooo happy with that!) and having store owners that i look skinny....why would I give that up to spend TONS of time and money in treatment??? Yipes.
But, as I posted in my journal.....I don't know which is scarier? Being so f*ed up that I'm facing a $15 thousand dollar treatment program, or the fact that I'm so f*ed up that i'm purging into a bag in my car while driving. Icky icky gross hell!
My bf and some of his friends are going out to a pizza place tonight and he said that I'd come but told everyone that I probably wouldn't eat. WTF they're all going to be like wtf is wrong with Jonny's girlfriend??? I know that going there is just setting myself up to purge, if I break down and have even one bite. Any advice on how to enjoy myself without ending up disappointing myself and my bf by ending the dinner in the bathroom?
So thank you for reading this if you took the time to!!!! I thought the color and bolding of the text might make it more interesting :)
THANK YOU ALL FOR EXISTING AND BEING SO WONDERFUL TO EACH OTHER!!!!
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| new member? hi there. (: |
[January 6th, 2010] |
1. Name: Ambrosia
2. Age: 19
3. Height: 5'9-ish? It's been a while since I've checked.
4. Weight (optional!!!) Roughly 200. Egh.
5. Type of ED (anorexia, bulimia, compulsive overeating, etc., if none, N/A is fine): Bulimia, with on and off anorexia.
6. Diet pills you take/have taken: Hydroxicut, Leptopril, something with Hoodia... Green Tea pills, but that's about all.
7. How long you've been anorexic, bulimic, etc. (again, N/A if you're not): Since I was 15
8. Post a few (or one) picture of yourself (optional): I would, but I haven't used LJ in years so I'm not sure how to use the cuts and all that,
but I can give you my facebook/myspace :)
Hello, hello my name is Ambrosia and I've always looked at this community for help with diet pills. I've used diet pills on and off, but I'm really determined to drop about 50lbs, eat a lot better, and do this once and for all. I've had my ups and downs with bulimia (Throwing up absolutely everything, finding tips on how to throw up..ect) and even going weeks without eating (Fasting for almost a month due to a painful ending of a relationship, but I did lose 30lbs) Either way, I'm looking to find some tips on dieting and getting some GOOD diet pills that will benefit me. I do have Leptopril which I've been taking up until yesterday. The first day I took them I had really bad anxiety and my heart was beating a little bit faster than normal, but I didn't experience any curb to my appetite (If anything, it increased it) So I don't think I'm going to continue taking them. They are ephedra free. I've been reading up a bit on this Fruta Planta so I might be ordering those in the future. I'm looking to get a gym membership soon to get this weight off faster. I look forward to sharing my info and recieving it as well. Good luck to everyone, and it was nice meeting you all :)
Thanks.
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[January 6th, 2010] |
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heyahh sweeties
how is everyone ?
omg well its been snowing like mad over where i live (wales - near cardiff ) but i have still done some excrise done about 30 minuters speed walking 1 hour wii fit plus and then 30 minuters just jumping around dancing and all that so all together 2 hours plus my dad is off out tonight so i will poubs do about 2 hours speed walking and about 2-3 hours running
ok calories wise ive had 360 so im going to have some cereal later so total for today is 400 yayy and I WILL NOT BINGE
fingers crossed anyway i normally binge when my mam or dad goes out :( but i will not do it tonight
and weigh myself i losed 2 pounds yayyyy going to weigh again tonight so ill updata you later ok guyss
stay strong
all my love and support
rose xxxxx
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| just you know.. |
[January 7th, 2010] |
most of the time, the reason i don't have the courage to post here is b/c i fail.
i've been on a binge-roll for the past 3 days and i don't have the guts to even log in to LJ.
make it short, i'm too ashamed b/c i have no control.
gosh.. i wish i had willpower.
i desperately have to lose weight.. yet..?
my cousin will be back on the 16th, so it will be harder for me to not eat..
meanwhile, i should control myself to the max while she's not here yet.
i don't care. i'll just restrict and refrain.
if i could do this, it would show me that i can control my own life for the better.
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so sorry girls :(
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| How to break a fast? |
[January 5th, 2010] |
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I was motivated to keep this going for 5 days after I overheard my sister talking to my mom about how she wants to be a size 3 again. I'm planning to go on for 5 days. Tuesday down. Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, & Saturday to go.
Question 1: How do you break a liquid fast?
Question 2: I'm feeling nauseous, weak & I'm having one hell of a head ache. Is that normal during a fast?
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| Fast yet awesome soup! |
[January 5th, 2010] |
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This was a super-fast yet very yummy soup I threw together last week when my bf and I were sick thanks to large family gatherings full of sniffly people. It uses a few pre-made ingredients, but you could definitely replace the boxed stock with home made (and replace the water with more stock)
Ingredients (everything is approximate)
2 tbs olive oil
1 1/2 c carrots, cut into 5mm rings (about 1 1/2 large carrots)
2 sticks celery, chopped
1 small onion, diced
4 cloves of garlic, minced (or to taste)
1 box Campbell's vegetarian soup stock
about 3 c water
1 c frozen corn
fresh ground pepper, to taste
wide egg noodles, cooked
To Make:
Heat olive oil in stockpot, and saute onion and garlic until onions just start to get transparent. Add carrots and celery, and saute until nearly cooked. Add pepper if desired (don't add salt- the broth has more than enough!) If the veggies are starting to stick, and a little water to deglaze the pot. Add the entire box of broth, and more water to taste (I added about 3 cups, since the fresh veggies add a lot of flavour). Let simmer for 15 minutes, then add frozen corn. Cook on low heat for another ten to fifteen minutes, until everything is at correct temperature and has had a chance to blend a bit.
Serve in a bowl with wide egg noodles (or preferred vegan noodle).
Serves about four people, or two sick and crabby people who just want to lie on the couch and eat soup.
Hope everyone has a happy and healthy 2010!
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[January 5th, 2010] |
So I finally aquired a scale I have not weight myself in the past month.
CW:137.8
HW:143
GW:125 ( Jan 25 )
115 ( Feb 12 )
110 ( Feb 25 )
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| fruta planta question |
[January 5th, 2010] |
So today was day 1 and I've been relatively not hungry but my heart was kinda racing more than a little bit today when I was working out.
It wasn't too pleasant.
Have other people noticed the same side effect, especially when working out?
Would you recommend to keep working out while taking fruta planta? It seems most people don't.
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[January 5th, 2010] |
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Attempted my first liquid fast & I have to say... I applaud myself LOADS.
To the people who responded to my last post, thank you. :) Made me smile like CHEEZE,YO. lol. I wonder if it's normal that I'm so hyper but I haven't chewed a thing today. BUT I did drink some coffee from some store. Teacher got it for me, I drank less than a half so just to be safe, I round that to... 75 calories. From then- nothing. But right now, diet coke. Awesome. I. feel. AWESOME.
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| Blogspot |
[January 5th, 2010] |
Well I can't keep track of livejournal and blogspot and even if my bf found my blogspot he promised he wouldnt go on it anymore...
So anyone have a blogspot?
Mines is http://memorialperfection.blogspot.com/
I would gladly follow because whether people know it or not,
My inspiration comes from alot of you.
Anyways,
Today so far,
222.5 calories..
I feel fat
:(
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| Tempeh? |
[January 5th, 2010] |
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Anyone have any suggestions for how to use it? I have a package sitting in the refrigerator, and other than stir-frying it with some spices I'm at a loss. What are your favorite tempeh recipes? Thanks!
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[January 5th, 2010] |
Hey everyone, been a long while since I posted. You know how it is.
2 STONE TO LOSE. At the very least. It feels like an upward battle and the top of the hill feels miles away, however remaining positive, it can and WILL be done. To add to my new years resolutions, 1. Get organised, it seems a bit silly but i'm thinking of writing a menu for each week so when I go shopping I only buy the bare minimum and not what feels like a good idea at the time. Not sure if you can see my method in my madness. Also incorporating an exercise regime and that way, when it's written in front of me hopefully I won't deviate from it or forget what i'm supposed to be doing.
2. Quit smoking! I'm on day two and so far so good. It's a bit crazy because quitting smoking is associated with putting on weight but as long as I don't replace smoking with eating I think i'm safe, plus, if you think about it, i'll be healthier and be able to push myself further when exercising, or at least, that's my theory. If anyone knows anything different, or anything at all please let me know!
One last thing, anyone tried diet pills? Anyone know any good ones? And where to get them? That last one is a biggy, it seems all the good ones are really hard to get hold of! (live in England, if that has anything to do with it)
Final word (honest) i'm not sure if it's any good at burning calories but was playing boxing on the wii and my arms are KILLING :D i'm hoping it might tone my arms up but I am concerned about chunkiness if I end up building muscle, don't want to look like arnold schwarzenegger! I'll be back!
Think thin, keep up the good work
lots of love xxx
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[January 5th, 2010] |
So far so good today :)
I have only eaten 140 calories in cheese and have been drinking water.
I feel very strong today and i am very happy.
I have spent my day looking up 'diet' pills such as apidexin, Phenphedrine, and Liporexall. Has anyone taken these or know of one with proven results? any input, positive or negative, would be greatly appreciated.
-L
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| Cranberry-Lime Salsa |
[January 5th, 2010] |
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Ingredients:
12 oz. cranberries
Scant 1/4 cup sugar
1/3 cup fresh lime juice
2 large garlic cloves, minced
1 jalapeno pepper, seeded and minced
3 scallions, chopped
Small bunch of cilantro, chopped
Instructions:
-Bring cranberries to a boil in hot water, boil ~2 minutes, DRAIN WELL
- In large bowl, mix sugar and lime juice
-When cranberries are thoroughly drained, add them to the bowl
-Add other ingredients, mix well, cover and allow to macerate at least 20 minutes before chilling in refridgerator.
I like this receipe in particular because it involves no added salt. It's pretty scrumptious.
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| SSP Day 2 |
[January 5th, 2010] |
So, I'm not feeling the energy anymore...but still getting the dry mouth. As for supressing the appetite, yesterday I wasn't hungry all day, but around 10pm when i got home from work I was starving. I only ended up eating a bowl of soup, cereal, and an egg sandwich through the whole day...which is pretty good for me. Today so far, I have eatten eggs before taking the pill, I'm not hungry yet, but I will be eating a small dinner around 6 so I'm not starving again late at night. I was feeling super hot at work earlier..not sure if that was a side effect or if they just cranked the heat up lol. I haven't checked my weight yet, and probably won't til friday. I heard sometimes these take a few days to kick in so I don't want to get discouraged if I'm not losing.
I hope my arent fake. I've read online different things about my packaging. I have the silver foil on one side and gren on the back with fruit on it. Let me know if any of you have used this version before please!
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| ok day |
[January 5th, 2010] |
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heyahh girless
how is everyone ?
ok today and yesterday wernt so bad you now could of been better could of been worse :)
but woooo yesterday i had the wii fit plus for my birthday (among other things) and its brill it tells you how many calories you burn and how many calories are in some food
so far today i have burned 266 not very good but im going to have a another go later
ok so ive had about 600 calories today :/ but im going to try and burn off around 500 - 600
and girless im so proud of my self earlier i sat down stairs (quite hungry) with a bowl of choclate and sweets on my lap for 15 MINUTERS and i did not touch 1 of then :D hey its a start and i WILL NOT TOUCH ANY OF THEN LATER ETHER I WILL BE STRONG
I would say yesterday i had about 1000 -1300 calories soo you now
hopefully its soupst to be snowing heavily tonight and tommrow so thats no college yayy it will still have a week to lose my 3-5 pounds i have ony losed 2 so far
anywayss stay strong
all my love and support
rose x x x x
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| mum with ED or just my imagination? |
[January 5th, 2010] |
am doing okay today am still on my raw food diet (day five) and i havent purged yet in five days(a huge accomplishment). but i dont feel so good because am not losing weight.
does anyone know where i can get green tea pills from? because they didnt have any at the pharmacies :( i can only get them online?
someone posted about their mum starting a diet and its too old for me to comment now but i can totally relate :( my mum eats so damn little i actually suspect she has an eating disorder. she is normal weight wise (probably a little underweight) and she is always dieting,she always uses the bathroom after eating and closes all the doors on her way there, or she suddenly eats too much. i also have two clinically diagnosed anorexic aunts and a cousin. so i feel we are all in sort of a competition. i hate it.
i love all the girls here. such a supportive community u guys all rock. we all go through almost the same shit everyday. i wish we all get better <3
as i always say, thank you.
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